20 Facts About Me Tag

1. My name is Giovanna Branco.
2. I was born is September 3rd, 1996.
3. When I was little, I wanted to be Hermione Granger, and one day I actually cried my eyes out when I realized I couldn't be her.
4. I play tennis, and I've been playing it since I was a tiny little girl.
5. I want to be an actress.
6. I've always dreamt of living in New York, and one day I definitely will.
7. I have a thing for rings (my mom says I'm compulsive about it-ALL LIES)
8. I grew up listening to Elvis Presley. My father has always been a fan, so we would listen to Elvis the entire time when we were traveling and stuff. My favorite song of his is The Wonder Of You.
9. Lana Del Rey and Marilyn Monroe are my queens, and I have this big framed picture of Marilyn on my bedroom wall.
10. I love to take pictures and write, but I've been always too insecure so I've only started to post it all now (and I'm loving it btw).
11. When I was 9, I won a contest for "best custom made t-shirt" for a little music festival. A CD gift card was the award and it made me the happiest kid ever as I was freaking out to buy Avril Lavigne's album. 
12. I used to be (well, I still am) really shy, and  I'd mostly avoid conversation with people specially my age.
13. Nutella is my favorite chocolate in the entire world. Tastes like rainbow and unicorns to me.
14. When I was little, I was one of the only girls in my class who liked to play football. I always played it with my boy friends.
15. I am insecure as f*ck, so it only takes one little bad comment for me to break down.
16. I play the guitar.
17. My bestest friends are named Alexia, Victoria, Fernanda, & Julia.
18. My first celebrety crush was Daniel Radcliffe.
19. Tumblr is my life.
20. I went to my first concert in 2009, and  it was the Jonas Brothers - Burning Up Tour. My sits were so far away that I coudn't see a damn thing, but it was the most amazing experience. I couldn't stop crying the day after it.

I hope you guys like it. A bit different from what I usually post here, so I enjoyed writing (:

Graduation & No More School

    
    I've made it! Yesterday was finally my graduation celebration! It was so fun, my friends and I got to watch little movies about ourselves, throw our hats up and say goodbye to our teachers. I received that little Texas trinket -so cute-.  Although I'll miss everyone, I'm so excited to go uni and meet new people... 2014 is going to be really good! Also, 7 days until Christmas! Who's excited?

John Green & Coffee Day

   

   I've got this little post today because it's been so long since I've last posted here, so let's get to the point shall we?

   Today was officially my first day of summer vacation (yep, it's summer in Brazil). By the new format of GinnysLamp title, I guess you can all see that I am feeling very festive right now. Christimas is definitely my favorite time of the year. (: After doing millions of school tests this week, it's finally over! So nothing like some coffee and a bit of John Green to brighten my day. Also... 13 days until Christmas!! I'm going to be posting everyday a random picture until xmas, just like this one up there (just like vlogmas, but without the vlog thing haha). Well, I hope you enjoy this mini christmassy edition, and I'll talk to you very soon.

      

                                                                                    

Depression & Self Harm

   

     Dealing with depression is one of the most challenging and i guess cruel situations you could ever imagine living with. I've wanted to do this post for a while now, because I think a lot of people have and get the wrong idea of depression and especially self harm. It's really important to grow awareness and spread information about those topics, because a lot of people suffer from it (lot more than you could ever imagine), and trust me, they need support.

    

   When you're depressed, you simply have no motivation. You feel sad, tired, and there's nothing that you feel attracted to or excited for. I've heard from a lot of people "If you're depressed, than why are you having fun? or "why are you laughing and smiling?" Just because someone's depressed, it doesn't mean that they will lay in bed for the entire day, crying and sobbing about how hard is life. When you're depressed, you'll have moments of fun and laughter, but at some point, the sadness will knock on your door suddenly, with no real reason or explanation. It doesn't have a reason for you to be sad or feel miserable about yourself but you just do. This is what makes depression such a peculiar subject to talk about, because no one can really understand or explain it. It's really important not to hesitate on seeking help when you're depressed. It's very serious, and it can escalate really quickly, leading to issues like self harming.

   A person who self harms, can do it for many reasons. 

1. Physical pain is a lot "better" and fulfilling  than psychological pain, and when you're depressed (you heart is in pain. The emotions you feel make you miserable) you just want to feel alive again, get away from the numbness and darkness, so you're willing to do anything it takes to actually start to "feel" again, even though it can destroy and hurt yourself. 

2. A person who self harms, can also do it as a form of punishment (which is really common), or a form of telling yourself how unsatisfied you are about either your looks, or your life and so on. Low self esteem and insecurity are the main reasons that lead a person to self harm.

 If you've considered self harm as a way out of this unknown mind blur, just know that there are many other ways out. Trust me, once you've started it, it's REALLY hard to stop. It will become an addiction in a matter of a time, and will complicate everything even more. 

   If you're dealing with any of those issues, look for help. The best way of getting yourself free from depression is having someone to talk to you and understanding your pain. A person who can see this whole situation from the outside, is more likely to help you and support you (that's why therapists are so important in the whole proccess).  Don't hesitate on seeking help, don't be ashamed of needing help. And always remember that you ARE good enough. Don't you ever make yourself small or let someone make you small. If things are bad, have patience and give time a little time. You're not alone, and will never be. So next time you feel miserable about yourself and contemplate self harming, just think "Oh, Giovanna is counting on me, so I better get my shit together and start to believe in myself and in my potential. I'm capable of doing everything that I want, and I'm certainly good enough". 

   If you need someone to talk to, or just a friend, you can either leave a comment below or contact me by email or tumblr (all information on the "Where To Find Me" bar). You're not alone in this journey. 

Have a blessed, joyful day!